Tag: allison gems
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Working hard is not a virtue
It took
Years of narcissistic abuse
Relentless
Demands of perfection
Compulsory heterosexuality
Catholic education
Save the world expectations
Graduation into recession
Know what you want now
No room for doubt
No time for life experience
What makes you special, unique
The best!!!
When you’re dead, you can finally rest
(If you’ve earned it)Spending my 20s
Crying and screaming in the car
And not knowing why, when
I’m supposed to be happy, fulfilled and
Grateful all the timeIt took
An abusive relationship
Relentless
To-do lists for self-improvement
Blossoming brain lesions
Literally turning against myself on a
Cellular levelIt took
One election
A worldwide pandemic
Years of isolation
A school shooting
Algorithms breeding division
Media monetized by despair
RelentlessIt took
One
moreelection .
And
It took me a lifetime
To understand thatWorking hard is
Not
A virtue.***
I’ve been holding my breath
My entire life
The tiniest step away from demise
Living in constant terror
That making the smallest noise will
Unleash the beast
Of ultimate destruction
And it will be my fault.That it will be the mere fact of my existence
One small inhale
That will end the world
And that the beast is not responsible
But my need to breatheWorking hard
is not a virtue.By: Allison Gems
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The DJ is my only friend
They call me a late bloomer
And here I am,
Dancing under the full moon
Growing and glowing in the heat of JuneIt’s the late shift at the Factory
And I’m dancing alone at the queer joy party
The DJ is my only friend
And she doesn’t even know it yetSilver jewels drip down my neck
Spotlights sliding up the walls
And the kids sing, “Every night’s
another reason why I left it all”And I wonder,
Do you know I’m the main character tonight?
I’m directing a film inside my mind.And I wonder,
Do you know I’ve got nothing to lose?
Just old ideas and obsessive bluesThey call me a late bloomer
And here I am:Transforming in the shadows
Dancing with the moon
Buds are close to bursting
DJ, take away my blues.
By: Allison Gems
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Vlad
Sometimes I’m sad
Sometimes I’m mad
Sometimes I’m Vlad
When the moon’s too loud
And the shadows shout
Then the fangs come out
And I prowl the streets
And I dance to beats
Freaking out people that I meets
Then come home again
To velvet-lined bed
Where I rest my head
Till alarm wakes the dead(The dead is me.
I am vampire.)By: Allison Gems
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Maybe it’s not my fault (intergenerational healing)
I’m sorry they made you that way,
and
I’m sorry
you chose to stay that way.
By: Allison Gems
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